A Leap of Faith

A dilemma: Do I quit without an acceptable alternative or stay in a work situation that is harmful to my health?  The conservatives argue "wait until you find a job." But what happens if staying there is harmful to your health...your emotional well being...and you can't find a job.  What happens if you have a child?  What do you do? I'm almost finished a masters degree that prepares me for what?  At this point McDonald's seems like a good alternative.  Will I be the first masters student working at McDonald's? Do I let a job go and trust that another pops into my path? I'm setting the quitting date because now I'd rather work a minimum wage job than live through another day of my job.  I've lived on the street; I've eaten at the food bank.  It can be done.  Why would I risk my emotional and physical health at a job that treats me poorly? Do I make a leap of faith...quit without an another job...and trust that is the right move?

A Graduate Change

What's happening? Why am I questioning...yes, gasp my esteemed professors...the same ones that I cowered in fear when they mentioned the word "paradigm?" Maybe I'm growing up.  Maybe I'm becoming (and I hate to say it) an expert in my chosen area. I'm the person who always downplays her skills, avoids competition, and thinks of failure when a new assignment is posted.  But now...things seem different.  I notice inconsistencies, incongruities, and downright silliness from my professors.  Don't get me wrong...I respect what they say most of the time...but now they seem almost human...and make mistakes like the rest of us.  This knowledge makes me smile, not in a superior way, but in the way that you know a secret...and it feels good.